Twas the Night Before the Night Before Christmas

I think this is the day that I dread the most.  The realization which is the same every year… that Christmas is approaching and so many people aren’t here.

I did at least put up my tree and decorate, but looking at the ornaments and remembering the moments in time that I received them forced me to remember.  But I didn’t cry too much, instead I kept myself busy cooking and exercising like a nut.  Guess I’ll still be fit after the holidays.

IDK…. I try to be calm, and each year gets better… but I always ask that same unanswered question.  “Why?”

Some of the cartoons remind me of my childhood, some of the classics remind me of my parents, It’s a Wonderful Life will always be me and Timmy’s movie… but thankfully I have Mari to get me through that.  A friend recently told me to stop running away from the tragedy’s and embrace them, but after losing my best friend this year it just seems inevitable that I’ll always be haunted, not to mention it adds to the pile that I’m already dealing with.  They need to add “Dealing with Death 101″ to school curriculum so that ppl can be a bit more prepared and find some solution to get over the grief.

Haven’t written any poetry in awhile… but the last few days and events in SL has brought the creativity back to my hand.  Now I just gotta add some pics to it for flow purposes. 

Dear SL Santa – More Group Spaces PLEEEZE!!!!

One of the many cries around the grid is the need for more group spaces.  I know I’m not alone in saying that 25 is NOT enough.

At the moment I’m subscribed to 7 paid groups which of course I’d be silly to leave cuz well… I paid.  Paid groups are worth investigating though before just shelling out lindens.  For example… I’m a huge fan and shopper of Earthstones and the freebies alone make up for that initial subscriber fee.

But what about those really great groups that provide support, ideas… yes and freebies.  SL is more of a PC dominant group so to find a group for Mac users was a blessing for me.  But then looking at my groups list… which one do I remove to make a spot?  In some large groups with many group titles and members… leaving and returning is a pain.  Once you leave basically you’re no longer recognized by the members and if you have been active and provided services or items for display… you leave, all ur stuff gets returned.  *shrugs*.

At one point I figured that paid members of Second Life got a bit of an advantage of having extra group space, but that’s not the case.  (although maybe it should be)

Drama Free Holiday

Wow… I’ve been missing for awhile.  *dusts off her control panel*

Lets start this off by saying… I’ve gone through many changes since October.  Made some new friends… gotten closer to the ones I already have… been in DRAMA that wasn’t created by moi.  SMH  I don’t know why ppl try so hard to control others or situations that they can’t and then put on this whole “woe is me” facade for the sake of attention seeking.  For men its just pathetic, and for women its just fuckin dumb… and pathetic.

I’m not gonna cry victim here cuz that’s not my style.  My style is to just lay back in the cut and watch as things unfold.  Case in point… last week I received an im randomly from someone looking to chat.  The introduction screamed suspicious cuz they made it a point in teling me who they know or no longer know for that matter.  I found that I was the topic of discussion on many occassions… still trying to understand why… but I don’t pay LL $10 a month to figure out shit like that.

In RL… I hate the holidays.  Too many people are missing from my life and after losing my best friend a few months ago it just resurfaces the reminders of my fiance, daughter and parents.  I did however put up a tree and managed to decorate it with no problems… well of course a few tears here and there… but its a healing process.

In SL I searched for the best tree I could find and have been insanely obsessed with it!!  Lol it gives out presents to

.::Breast Cancer Awareness Month::. In Memory Of…

.::Breast Cancer Awareness Month::. In Memory Of…, originally uploaded by ~Marva Cee~™.

So… What’s Ur RGB?

I find it amusing that to some skin designers in SL asking the RGB of a skin is as personal as asking what their sign is in RL.

I’ve been a fan of Redgrave skins since my noob dayz when someone suggested them but I’m recently finding there are great designers out there.  I’m sorry… I’m one of those people that stick with something for the long haul if it’s good.  When I was introduced to Stiletto Moody’s KILLER heels that’s when I became more aware of RGB shades and matching to perfection.  At that time Redgrave didn’t disclose that info, but seeing as the creator was in fact a fan of Moody’s herself, it wasn’t long before the requests for skin coloring became answered to the group.

Fast forward to the world of perfection matching.  I’ve recently purchased prim feet and found myself again struggling for that perfect shade.  So here’s the skinny.

In the advanced menu (ctrl – alt- d if you don’t already have it) go to UI then select Show Color Under Cursor.  This will display the RGB colors of whatever you mouse over on the bottom of your screen, making color matching much easier.  For example… I learned while trying to match my prim feet that by placing the cursor right at my ankle I’ll have a more closer coloring to my foot than if I used the RGB color of my arm.  Yes my friends… the skins are made of up several RGB colors… this will give you a much better way of matching it perfectly.

Hope this helps all of the prim peeps such as myself who just HAVE to be matchin.

SL Raw .. what avatars REALLY look like before all that PS crap

SL Raw .. what avatars REALLY look like before all that PS crap, originally uploaded by Ðeni [no to safe only groups].

OMG this is the FUNNIEST shit I’ve EVER seen on Flickr!!!
Lol I love Deni’s work and she had the nerve to submit this to the SL Six Packs & Buns of Steel group. Unexpectedly, I like to browse through the group pool while enjoying my morning cup of joe…. but THIS caught me sooo off guard that my poor macbook screen ended up covered in liquid from me dying of laughter!!! /me is still cracking up laughing!!!!!

Thanks Deni for making my day!!!!!

Properly Inked

Tattoo Mag

I wouldn’t say that I have a tattoo addiction, but I do like quality when I can find it. One thing about SL tats as opposed to RL ones… is that you very seldom see “black ink”.

I find myself running into many avis (mostly men) whos tats are just a harsh black ink pasted onto the skin. Depending on the skin they have… it takes away from the definition of their appearance… especially if its on the chest or near the abs. (Mmmmm abs).

One of my favorite tat shops is Aitui. Jesse’s work is just amazing… the clothing too, but when I first went there I was somewhat searching for something that would just jump out at me… the above tat did just that. My brother has a tat on his bicep with the same wording… lol so in a spiritual sense that’s another reason for the purchase. But what I love about Aitui’s tats is the layering. For females the layering is important, because not that many designers include a jacket layer for shirts. I am coming across alot that have changed that like Dezi’s Staged Fashions and of course Mrohs’s Edge Designs. I started out wearing stuff from Armidi because there were more options. Lol if you know me inworld you rarely see me without that tat on… unless of course you see me nakey and that doesn’t happen. 0:-)

Some of the freebie tats are really cool but ya might wanna watch out for that harsh texture.  I mean if ur gonna present urself well, you might as well scope out some of the best right?  Lol or else you’ll be stuck with people like me talking about ya.

mag cover by MagaFake.com

The 1st Life Tab

Downloading 1st Life….. please wait….
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“Unable to connect to Real Life.  Despite our best efforts, something unexpected has gone wrong.”

Many residents chose to share their RL info and that’s fine… for them.  But I can’t stand it when you do in fact fill in that spot with the limited info you want to share and people just probe for more.

I think maybe the only important fact that belongs there is gender.  I’ve heard many people falling into a relationship with an avi only to find out later that they are of the same sex… devastating it may be.  But even in filling out that spot doesn’t guarantee that it’s true.

I think I’ve filled mine in with something funny (see above)… cuz that’s just me, but to important people that I deal with on a daily basis I do feel the need to prove my gender, only for trust purposes… but that’s all!! (shhhhhh)

The name of the game is Second Life… why is my First Life so important?  If I fill that spot in with limited info… that clearly means THAT’S ALL I WANNA SHARE!!  Then of course comes that irritating question… “why?”  Am I really supposed to answer that?  Do I NOT have the right to NOT disclose shit that I don’t want known?  Lol, but have no fear… being the person that I am I firmly stand by the right that I DON’T HAVE TO ANSWER SHIT!!!!

Bring Back My Wallet… Please!!!

With all the new changes going around with SL’s new website and Xstreet blending in nicely, there’s still one feature missing. I have linden… why can’t I move my linden from my account to my shopping account? The people that hang around the terminals scare me!! Not everyone shops on Xstreet while simultaneously logged in to SL.. hence the need for um “Favorites”, so the purpose of teleporting to a terminal to add linden can be somewhat annoying at times… especially if you aren’t at your own personal computer.

Also, I thought shopping was about convenience. I was a big fan of OnRez when it was available. The convenience and luxury of just rezzing my wallet from the foand adding linden was just “da shit!”. Um when can we have that back??

I know I know… there’s always Paypal… but you can’t transfer funds on the uncensored site. Also, sometimes ya just don’t wanna do that either.

Lol just bring back the wallet and no one’ll get hurt… aight????

*UPDATE* Lol upon writing this post, I didn’t realize that Xstreet does in fact offer a method of adding Lindens from your account to the shopping balance. DUHHH!!

This really cool product called Xstreet SL Remote Deposit does exactly what I need!! Lol and the description rocks.

This little wonder will let you deposit Lindens into your Xstreet SL account without even logging into Second Life! It’s especially handy for people who:

Shop from work (only on breaks, right?)

Day-trade our currency exchange

Can’t log in to Second Life (if you’re using a public computer for instance)

Rely on Second Life for First Life income

To use it, just keep it rezzed in Second Life. Once you’ve done that, you will see a Deposit link next to your SLL balance in the My Xstreet section of the website. Enter the amount, verify your password for security, and you’re done!

Then of course… the cons. According to the reviews (yeah I read reviews!) the processing time can take long.

Thanks Miro for filling me in on the deets!!! Now see… if I hadn’t posted this… I wouldn’t have learned anything!!! XD

The Misappropriation of Fun

I start out with a heavy sigh…. *sighs* followed by a loud ass WTF!!!!!

For the past few days I’ve been killing my friend Jana’s ear (or eyes for that matter) with the bullshit that men have been getting away with recently. When the fuck did men turn into such whiny bitches??? (I totally missed the memo)

I have friends… male friends… I’m gonna have male friends… my male friends have male friends, my males friends friends have male and femals friends, lol.. just a little noise to break the monotony. But by the thought of the whole girl & boy plutonic no-no relationships (meaning that they can’t be done), I seem to have been placed into a category of “wanted and willing”… meaning, if given the chance, I’ll fall for whatever bullshit line a guy throws at me. NOT!

Rules are… there are no rules, only respectable limits and boundaries that one sets for themselves. I have never hidden the fact that I am a flirt (hi, my name is Marva, and I’m a flirtoholic)… maybe this needs further clarification.

1. I am a humerous, respectable flirt
2. If I’m with you… I’m with you (END OF STORY)
3. There will always be other people flirting, trying, wanting, doing things to annoy the shit out of the person I’m with… handle it like a trooper but give me the time and space to handle it as well.
4. DO NOT interrogate me on the actions of the person that’s getting on ur fuckin nerves. DEAL DIRECTLY WITH THEM OR ELSE I’LL TEASE YOU ABOUT HOW MY BALLS ARE BIGGER THAN YOURS!!! Why hold me accountable for shit I didn’t do or even come up with?

One of the things that I strongly despise… is being questioned repeatedly about “why someone did this” or “why someone did or said that”. How the hell should I know? I have a hard enough time dealing with my own thought process.

Furthermore… don’t ya just LOVE the people who view SL as some kind of dating service? What happened to the whole fun part of it? I mean… yeah, who doesn’t like being on SL and at times spending it with someone you really care about… but every single hour, minute, second, milisecond? <— is that a word? =P

Ok, I think I’ve calmed down a bit…